When I was working with a therapist in 2007, I thought I was getting over a lot of pain from my past lives. However, after overcoming this pain, my life did not really change.

Over time, I came to believe that dealing with past life issues was a waste of time and ended up focusing on what had happened in this lifetime. About seven years after this, I ended up researching this area again.

A seemingly random encounter

At the end of 2014 I met someone named Ian Baillie, and he was someone who knew everything about past lives. It didn’t take long for him to think of a life I’d had in the past, and over time he shared other lives I’d had.

It became clear that he had the ability to tune in to what someone had been through in the past. He was a little skeptical at this point, but he was open-minded and willing to listen to what he had to say.

A life

By spending more time with Ian and becoming good friends with him in the process, I began to open up more to what he was talking about. When it came to the last life I had, he said that I was present during the Vietnam War and that I was killed fighting in this war.

When I thought about this, it made a lot of sense, because when I had a lot of trauma coming to the surface around 2011, I felt like I was in a war zone. Still, I attribute it to the fact that I grew up in a very unstable environment.

the obvious reason

I spent years researching the effect my childhood years had on me and seeing this time in my life as the reason I felt so traumatized made sense. If my early years were very nurturing and understanding, chances are I would have believed that what I went through was the result of the last life I had.

After this, I continued to work through the layers of pain within me and didn’t think much of this past life. A few years later my attention was drawn back to this area when I was flipping through a book dealing with the effect past lives can have on someone.

Another look

In a way, it was as if they were encouraging me to look again in this area and see something I hadn’t seen yet. I thought about having a past life regression session, but that was it.

I got to the point where I felt like I could do this work on my own and no longer felt the need to look outside of myself for help. So instead of having one of these sessions, I continued to work with my inner child.

I went deeper

When I do this work on myself, I usually connect with a part of me that suffers from being neglected and I end up suffering from these unmet needs. But when I did this another time, I connected with a part of me that was very different.

This part of me wasn’t sad that his needs weren’t met, it was sad that he couldn’t finish what he started. On the outside he looked like a child, but from what he said it was as if he were an adult.

Other life

From what this part of me said and based on how it felt, it was like one moment I was in one life and another moment I was in another life. Along with this, this part of me didn’t feel safe.

I ended up thinking about how frustrating it must be to go from one life to another since there is nothing that this part of our being can do; that is, of course, unless we are raised by people who are deeply in tune with themselves. First, we can go from being a capable adult to being a helpless baby, and second, we have no way of communicating with our caregivers.

very misleading

This part of me didn’t see my caregivers as my mother and father; he just saw them as people who were there to take care of him. And because of how it was for him last time and how scared he was, he wanted to protect them.

His outward appearance was nothing like what was happening inside. The only option I had was to allow this part of me to mourn what I had lost; the same way I would for my inner child.

final thoughts

I came to see that my early environment was simply a continuation of what this last life was like. What had happened in this life played a role in how I felt and what had happened before also played a role.

Maybe you feel that what happened in a past life is impacting your present life or maybe this is not something you have thought about before. My advice would be to keep an open mind and see what you find.